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Friday, May 26, 2006
6:52 PM
oh wells.. today had GP mid year exam. hmm.. it was alright.. hope i can pass.. :) the GP exam sucked all my brain juice because after everything was over, i felt a bit giddy.. but was alright after a short while..
i hear something.. something is at my doorstep.. i open the door with much trepidation and to my surprise.. it's
MR HOLIDAY! yay! finally it's here.. the long awaited month- JUNE! No more tired days.. no more panda eyes and no more crap from YS(suck to the core).. temporary.. but this holiday seems very packed and empty. I gotta start mugging for my O levels that i'm gonna retake.. handling the coming mid year exams and homework. But i still got some wish that i still waiting to be fulfill.. some plans that i have drawn up.. perhaps a 5 days study, 2 days play? haha..
Today went to my new house and got a few boxes of things to carry up with my dad.. chairs, small little tools and boxes and boxes of daily products that could still be stored.. Then after that, went to bukit panjang plaza alone to take a stroll, giving respite to the stress and problems in life.. Saw my 4 years secondary school english teacher, Ms sheila, sitting alone.. enjoying her finger licking good chicken wings at mos burger.. went in and chatted with her for a while without any hesitation.. ms sheila, take care of your eyes man.. you're tearing like so badly.. what a omg tearing impluse disorder.. Then, i couldn't believe my eyes.. today while i was on my way back from school, while i was about to alight, i saw zhiyang! woohoo.. he boarded the bus when i was about to alight.. damn..
didn't know that his head was so big.. lol!!haha.. but then, so coincident.. i saw him again at bukit panjang plaza while i was walking to popular.. he was with another guy friend.. saw him in his green t-shirt and baggy light blue jeans.. walking side by side with his guy friend in a cool cool attitude with his pairs on hands stuffed into the deep pockets on his jeans.. i also caught him staring at me and when i looked at him, his eyes immediately shuns away.. haha.. of course not forgetting what i noticed.. while he was walking, i saw girls that walked pass him would sudden turn their head over and look at him again.. haha.. and girls having small little conversations, whispering into each other's ears.. and i happen to overhear one of their conversation.. "
eh.. zhiyang leh! wah lao.. he so..." haha.. and another one.. "
was that zhiyang? eh.. you all saw zhiyang or not? he's in this green colour t-shirt you know?" haha.. and when i came out of popular that time, another conversation i overheard,"
erm.. excuse me.. just now did u saw zhiyang? he's in a green colour t-shirt.. which direction did you see him going in?" omg.. jealous sia.. haha.. wadever lah..
Looking forward to the day i can go out with YOU again and also..
24th June 2006..
Indoor stadium.. it's gonna rock my socks off!
embracing in the past is what i am left to do when i misses you so much.. being ambivalent was never me.. as such, my fidelity for you was never in question.. no matter how hard it would be, there would be an endeavor of mine, trying to glean new sights, which has always been a motive in my mind..
Wednesday, May 17, 2006
5:24 PM
Days past so slowly the days without the care and concern of yours. I think you're busy.. thats why but it's okay.. i'm still kicking! Sometimes i am wondering, it's been a while and there's this agonizing pain growing in my heart whenever those memories that's FULL of smiles , laughter, happiness were triggered just by that familiar scent. But now that seems so vivid and unreachable.. we can't seem to get back to those days anymore because those things that happened messed it all up. But I am still picking them up now and then.. Just to feel.
I don't mind waking up for you in the late night. I don't mind traveling from my house to yours. I don't mind getting scolded by him when i am forever on the phone with you. I don't mind singing for you over and over again. I don't mind.. i really don't... because you're always more than that.
ALL these, i won't lose grip and i am still holding on to it.. real tightly.. waiting..
anyway, this friday joining GTS for JJ TALENTINE @ NTU! Troubles aside as the fun sets in.
I've stretched the rubber band to the limit. I wanted so much more.. it couldn't take it and it snapped off my hands. Would it be as wonderful when there's a way to glue it back to perfection? I guess..
Friday, May 12, 2006
6:34 PM
Stabilizing might be good. I don know how much time it needs to kill but you wanted more time, have it. Those words still haunt me and I really don know what to do when I came across again and again thinking that i would have ways to help you put throught. It's so bad that now I've sort of forgotten the way you guffaw because I don't hear it from you anymore. Giving up has never been my intention but each time I tried to reach you, it seems like there's no reaction from you anymore. THAT little comment that you would normally give isn't there anymore. I can feel it and I know it.. I don't know whether you know I feel it or not. I'm starting to slow down, I think you're too.. Am I right?
This is a challenge, believe in me, we can make it. Let's walk side by side together through this okay? Remember, I'm still chained to you.
Tuesday, May 02, 2006
5:19 PM
What happened yesterday? Is it a bad day or a blessing in disguise for me yesterday? I don't know what happen. Firstly, I just miss her SO much. I really feel like calling her and talk with her over the phone but i think she's busy so i killed that thought. And i reached a point whereby all my thoughts was only her and the best part was.. I cried.. for YOU. I really miss YOU a lot a lot. I hope
YOU see this.
Secondly, yesterday had a quarrel with my brother about that stupid sms thing.. Was really angry initially but i'm okay soon i call HIM and HER. They bought me joy and my smile came back again. Now thinking back whatever things i told my brother when i blow my top, i find that it's kinda foolish. He's my only brother, why so blown away by what he did?
Forgive him, he is still young- thats what i told myself.
Didn't know i love my brother so much after we quarreled and for that, i forgave him. :)Sorry for keeping you waiting over the phone and listening to all the unnecessary conversation that was unpleasant for you. I promise nothing like this will happen again okay? :) Yeah, indeed, we're good at sneaking a 10-inch pizza into the cinema. I wish to try that again. But, when's the next time? :D
I think i owe you something. I owe you me because you own me. :)