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Friday, July 07, 2006

3:05 PM

yeah! back for blogging FOR A WHILE. well, it's been so so so long ever since i lasted posted on my small little, always-stagnant-pathetic-boring blog. actually, i have been really busy. for those who didn;t know, i am actually having my mid year exams these few weeks. so far so good for my exams but erm.. i think econs, damn fc*ked up. time management is the key, i need guidance on that!

recently, my brother shared with me a way to identify or rather, check whether someone's I/C number is genuine or not. kinda surprise by this because i was like.. WHAT? REALLY? hha.. there's this formula which could be used to check the alphabet on your i/c. my bro tried to use that formula to prove that it works on my I/C no. but to no avail.. something went wrong i believe and that formula didn't worked out. I'll post that formula up here once it's CONFIRMED. :)

and yeah, world cup really bring families or friends together. i remembered just a couple of days before the start of my mid years, i was at my uncle's house watching germany vs agentina. and the next day, we went up and watched england vs portugal. it's really funny because everyone in my family not really fond of world cup and out of the sudden, we all just like sit together in front of the tv, cheering and shouting GOAL so loudly when our favourite teams scored. i was one of them, letting it all out.. shouting all the while like some kind of hardcore fans. :X and it feels great after all, especially going home late in the night, travelling in a car along an empty street and suddenly you can see like a lot of cars coming out of some junctions, only to know that there's telecast of world cup matches for people to watch under the blocks of some HDBs in a coffee shop like mine, or somewhere in bukit panjang plaza..

i've been attending classes outside for my gp. and i was like too reluctant to tell ppl that i am from MI, then i told them, i am from JJ. lol.. and it was like a adrenaline rush through my veins when i faked my identity.. yes, i know it's bad to be a lier but i am just so NOT proud to annouce to the class that i am from MI during the self-introduction. i am just not ready for that.

and here comes the best part, there's this guy named desmond claims to be from SRJC. and he onced asked me where do i live. and i found out that he lives in bukit panjang area too. there's something to take note of.. SRJC in serangoon and he's in bukit panjang? then, so happen that there's one day around my class's cooridor, i happen to see a person's features from his back resembles desmond. but i didn't care much and went to the washroom. i don't know if i am wrong or anything but i just noticed him staring at me across the room when i am sitting opposite to him and avert his eye from me when i looked at him. it's not once but throughout the lesson and i once suspect that he's a brokeback mountain.. and today, while walking to the bus stop with my friend, david, i saw someone across a road junction. i focused my attention on that guy and to my horror, it's desmond and he's from MI also.. lol.. and i think, both of us are on the same boat now. we lied.. lol.. and all that staring he did was for a reason. omg.. i am stripped naked long time ago and i didn't know that. fancy me putting up a mask in front of others and being exposed of your real identity. that feeling sucks. but both of us are quits, nothing to hide anymore and i am gonna ask him about this next wednesday when i see him again.

and i am really concern about some of my friends. they are either just so occupied by work or troubled by problems that's haunting them forever.

xxxxx, voicing out somewhere especially on your blog is a good choice. the past memories that perpetuates in you just doesn't help to better your situation now. you miss him so much, go and ask him out or call him. do whatever it takes to get closer to him.
i think to end all your hardships, i am just gonna give these sharpy comments from an aspect of mine. i hope you don't get insulted or whatever. because i really can't bear to see you sink any deeper in that. pulling your socks in your studies might just be a more realistic manner for you. the rest, leave it. like what your mom onced told me,
trouble won't come and find you, it's when you knock on it's door.
and i do agree with that statement she told me.

actually, those who could console others, their biggest challenge was to console themselves.

i really miss you rotten. really a lot a lot. and it's like so hard to stop thinking about you for just a moment. i really want to go back to those days and start all over again from the scratch of our friendship. pure friendship and i shall stop there. and it seems so hard. really you know? simply because it's just can't get started at all. and i'll try to make myself busy and have no time to think about those things. it helps a little sometimes but most of the time, it feels so horrible when i start thinking about you being really like strangers to me when an impluse was triggered.
and yes i know, it's really makes no sense to you pounding on such things again and again because you simply don't care and avoids these issues all the time and HE, is what defines you best.

forgive me for my harsh and ruthless comments. i am in desperate need to get your attention.