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those long gone

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Saturday, August 12, 2006

2:37 AM

Today was rather an satisfying, happy and surprising day for me. Yesterday had og outing with my friends in JJ and I am very happy to see people I wanna see.
Though we didn’t even talk to each other and it’s merely just eye contact, waves for hello and goodbye and a smile casted on our faces for each other, but it’s enough to tell me that you’re okay. And I felt rather guilty to actually kill those thoughts of talking to you, feeling that you might actually feel awkward. I should have gone up to you and prompted you a friendly how are you or something, but the fact is, I can’t bring myself to do that. Once I have myself looked into your eyes, I immediately turned away because that feeling which I shouldn’t have actually does still exist in me somehow. What feeling was that? I think you know best.
We watched a movie called, see no evil, wow! It’s really see no evil man. A lot of violence for digging people’s eyes out? Having that sharp hook of a long metal chain pierced into the body of a victim? And blood oozing out of dead bodies, almost flooding the screen with each and every scene the movie has. Shi qing, so sorry for asking you to watch such a movie although we know that you would be freaked out, which you really did in the theatre and practically switched yourself off from the movie and seek peace and purity from your handphone games instead of joining us in this bloddy visual experience. Haha.. but it’s sad when some of us are leaving, because I felt that we didn’t actually spend enough time for each other, leaving myself with incomplete task which I planned to perform but just no motivated to do it. Well, like what I said, it’s not how long we spend, but it’s how we spend with each other.
OG 14, let’s have an outing in September shall we? I hope the next outing we have would have more people attending and of course, NO MORE violent movies and short and simple gathering. We gonna spend more time since we hardly can come out together as ONE.
Thinking of you all today just makes myself very satisfied with life.

And today, I had O level English oral back in my previous secondary school. As my friends and I were walking to the coffee shop near my previous secondary school, a lot of my schoolmates who are still studying there shouted my name. and it’s like a lot of people man, turning me like a celebrity. My friends were kinda surprised by all that shouting.. haha.. then, while waiting for our turns for the oral examinations, all of us waiting were trying to glare hard enough to actually guess what the picture conversation was about. people at the table reading the oral thing was like showing us the picture by holding it high up in the air in front of the teacher who’s keeping the time. And gosh, that teacher didn’t say anything about that even though it’s so obvious that we’re cheating.. lol.. and soon it’s my turn, I opened the door with much trepidation, walked up to the examiners and did my best for it though at one point I saw one of the examiners yawning in front of me but I am not affected by that and did my best though.
God, please help me get good grades my oral. I need to ace it in order to reach my target.

And after I finished everything, I can’t help myself from falling back into those secondary school days as I walked pass each familiar corridor, remembering each and every incident that happened at that place. Now I know how hard that feeling was. Then, I walked pass the chem. Lab which my chem. Teacher always brings us to. Then later I heard a familiar voice talking inside the lab. I walked in and saw my chem. Teacher. Mrs teo, thanks for your care and concern for me and my family. Do you know that as I am talking to you, you made me feel as if you’re like someone close to me, showering motherly love care and concern for each and every bit of complains that I voiced out to you about my school and stuff? Anyway, hope you’re doing fine. I’ll visit you again on 1st September, presenting a token of appreciation for you.

Memories must not turn grey, because their history that made your day.